micha_bravo
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# Posted: 22 Dec 2006 12:37
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To all of my friends at the out Outpost.
As many of you know, I have dissapeared from OTF. It was not my wishes that this happened nor my hopes. I suppose I should have found to the time to explain why I went awol from my post but I'm afraid that time is just something that I haven't had at all. I know that sounds silly but it is very true that I've not had five minutes over the last couple of months.
I could have sat down and wrote a one second, "Hi I have to leave", but I felt that it was important to have time to sit down and tell you all that leaving was not my choice, but as we all know, life doesn't care what we "want" to do. Many times we have to "do" what we "have" to rather than what we "want" to unfortunately. This is one of those times sadly.
So to explain and clear up any confusion that may have evolved, my father's health has been declining for several years now. This year it took a very bad turn as to where he had been hospitalized (my dissapearance) and I was forced to quickly grow up.
I don't wish to sound as if I mean you all here are not grown up, because that is not my intention at all. I love the Outpost and the people at it. I simply mean to say that life has taken me down a path that doesn't allow me to have this kind of child-like innocent fun anymore.
You see, I am from a farming family. I have three brothers and all of us have left the farm to pursue other careers in life. But with my father falling ill to this extent, he is no longer able to manage the farm and we all wish to keep this farm in our family, not to mention that many people depend on our family for employment through this farm. Running a business is time consuming, especially when you have your own life to run outside of this business.
My brothers and I have decided that we will all pitch in to keep those employees happy and safe and to keep the farm in full operational mode. Because of this we are all scrambling to re-arrange our personal as well as professional lives. It will not be an easy task, but splitting the responsibilites will allow us all to keep our jobs that we already have and like.
As for my peers in ISA/Intell, I'm sorry if my dissapearance has let you down. It was never my intent to do such. When we've not been taking care of business, we've been at my father's bedside as requested due to the fact that they we unsure of whether he would pull through or not. This is where my time has been spent that was "free".
I am honored that you gave me a chance to pursue Intell again and felt confident in me to let me run it in turn until someone new was found. I apologize again for having to leave unannounced as I did and I apologize if I did let you down as such. I had many ideas to implement but surely you will find someone (if you haven't) who is well suited and qualified.
I am here today, because they are releasing my father from the hospital finally. He is stabalized but he won't be returning to work in any capacity. Last year the doctors tried to force him to retire on health reasons, but he didn't listen. This year he has no choice and neither do my brothers and I. Too many people rely on us for their livelyhood.
I hope my brethren in ISA and Intell can understand my having to leave hastily. I don't ask you to forgive me, just try and understand.
I'm not sure if I'll ever really be back. I cannot see the future except for knowing how much I already miss you guys. I truly do. I have had more good times with you all than I can count. My regrets are I won't get to watch the Outpost grow up with me anymore and that I never will have to chance to get to know you all better.
You are some of the kindest and most decent people I have had the pleasure of knowing is a world so filled with ugly.
So I say goodbye and post my formal retirement with the hopes that someday I will see you all again. Sadly, I doubt I will be back however. I will think of you all and smile in the future and hope you are all very well.
I'd hug you all if I could, but I'm only giving out one today and that's because she sent me a Christmas card that made me realize how much I miss you all (something I haven't had time for under the circumstances):
*Hugs Cinna*
This is my final communication and trip the Outpost, please remove me from any mailing lists.
Micha Bravo
(RIP: 1997-2007)
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